It Ain't So Bad

just dropped by cher's blog, and yingH's, and jingH's, because i was updating and they still have relatively active blogspots.

anyways i realised that i'm lucky to have found good friends in uni, and not have had to have gone overseas or live away from home just for uni.

i mean, just today i had lunch with friends i hang out with not because we just had the same class and are going for the next class together, or i hang with just because they're in my course, or they're old friends i used to know and with whom i eat lunch with just for the company.... no. today i had lunch with people i hang with because we have tons in common, get each other's jokes, and although do not share identical backgrounds and lifestyles, somehow find listening to each other's random ramblings interesting and want to know more.

i mean, today, at lunch, we were laughing our heads off at an overly-sweet drink. before any of the sugar could have an effect on us. we dissed stuff we had mutual distaste for, and digressing, brought up random topics remotely related to the current topic.

it was not to say a lunch to remember, but it was a lunch i cherish. because these lunches nowadays are too few and far between. i mean, they only happen once every two days.

but yeah, i may grumble that all my close friends are overseas and not with me, and be jealous that they get to go experience different cultures and lifestyles, so every so often i need a little reminder of how lucky i actually am. to be stuck here in this beautiful country. filled with its funny politics and lousy education system, which in the end doesn't really make a big difference.

i love the nature and the lifestyle of the people here. and if the good people would stop running off to "greener pastures" maybe we could actually make a change for the better together here.

malaysia is a geographically wonderful place to live, did i mention that?

but yeah, not to say that i have replaced anyone, but just that i have found new friends who will make life without old friends more tolerable... fun, even. i shouldn't feel guilty about this- so i shan't. after all, it was everybody's choice to pursue their own dream. and i think that i have to let go somewhat, to make room for new things. my resolution: stop making such a huge effort to keep in touch with old friends, and stop beating myself up if i don't have the time to- it's not healthy. if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. i mean, cher has a point, we can't just keep going back to yesteryears to remain close. what brought us close together was our shared experiences. and now if we don't have that, we have to find new people to share our lives with.

oh, my coursemates are a blast too. hehheh.